Departure

Tonight feels very heavy for me.  Reality is setting in that I will be bracing myself soon for the upcoming departure of my boyfriend when he leaves for a four month deployment.  I have never been in a place quite like this and I'm really scared.  I already miss him.  I wonder how I will cope, I wonder so many things.  Going through something like this makes everything else in my life seem very small and insignificant.  I will need my family and friends more now than ever before.